On this week of thanksgiving God gave me the precious gift of true Thanksgiving.
At my bible study the other night the song Temporary Home was played. The last section of it talked about an old man in the hospital saying good bye to his loved ones. In that moment I was brought back to my grandfather’s deathbed a few years ago. Even though it was a while ago I was brought right back to that place of grief and loss.
At the end of the study another song was played. I don’t even remember what the song was. I didn’t really hear it. While I was sitting there listening to the song God gave me a beautiful picture.
My heart heavy with sadness, I could feel it a hard lump in my chest. When all of a sudden God reached down and touched my heart. It began to rise and lighten. It bloomed like a flower and I emerged from my grief. I flew up to heaven straight into God’s arms. As I hugged God I turned into a small child safe in my father’s arms. God hugged me close to him and told that everything would be ok, he would always be with me.
This season of life has been very overwhelming. I have been busy, overworked and under-able. I have been feeling constantly like I need a break, but don’t have much time for one. I have found ways to cope, taking a little time for myself here and there, trying to get things done so that I could mark them off my list, but it is not enough. I need God now, I can’t get through a single day without him. I can’t do anything without him. Tonight he reminded me of that, and lifted me out of my problems in a very special way and I am so thankful for it. I am thankful that he gave me the gift of peace, and thankful that he gave me the gift of thankfulness.
When this happened I knew that he had not given me this gift just for me but to share it with others too. I know that this season is busy for a lot of people, and many of you may be dealing with grief both fresh and resurfaced. So this picture is for you too. God is there for you always holding out his arms and holding you in his arms. Always there for you.
God Bless You