This series consists of notes that I wrote on facebook in the past. Enjoy reading my thoughts during my college years. Please comment but please be nice! Also please feel free to check out my other Blast from the Past Posts.
From October 2006
Head vs. Heart
I had something deep and inspiring to say but I cannot remember
what it was. So maybe if I just keep typing other things it will
eventually come back to me. How are you all doing? I know I see a lot of
you every day, but most often I do not get to talk to you. So how are
you? How are you're classes? Anything exciting in your life? Did you
have a lot of midterms?
I'm sitting here in my dorm room all alone.
The people who love me are not nearby. I'm pining away for someone who'll
stay. Oh I remember! It may not be deep and inspiring, actually, but
here is what I was going to say.
Why can't my head and my heart
just get along? Why do they have to disagree on just about everything?
The main thing that I am thinking about right now is relationships. To
be specific, relationships with guys. My heart says that having a
romantic relationship would be fun and good, and that is what I really
want. My head says that I am not ready, and in need of a relationship
right now. I am in my first year of college. I know that what I want to
do is finish up college and at least try to do whatever it is that I
have decided that I want to do with my life. The reason this conflicts
with a relationship is that I feel that dating has a purpose. That
purpose is leading towards marriage. I have a feeling, and know that
there is a possibility that when I get married I will have kids right
away. I have already decided that when I have children I will be a stay
at home mom. This would make doing what I have decided to do career wise
impossible. Since I think that a 4-8 year dating or engaged relationship
is a little long, now would not be the time to start one. My head knows
this. My heart is still trying to convince me otherwise.